Everyone has them – the race anxiety dream. They are not limited to iron distance races but they are de rigueur for them and I was getting a little concerned that mine had not yet shown up. I was worried that perhaps I was feeling a little too good and didn’t have the proper respect for the distance. And then it happened.
I was on the swim and I was swimming between my friends Sharley and Dana, neither of whom are doing this race and both of whom swim much, much faster than me so I was happy! I think we might have even been chatting a bit, the way you can do in a dream. I had some sense that we were well behind the pack but the water felt good and I kept thinking ‘this isn’t bad- this water feels pretty nice and I’m not cold at all’. When we got to shore I realized I was wearing my fleece boots the entire time. No wonder everyone else was done.
The swim ended in a concrete warehouse and the 1 or 2 remaining volunteers were ignoring me. No help for Miss Fuzzy Boots. I looked up and asked someone ‘aren’t you going to help me get my wetsuit off? And they said everyone was done and I’d have to do my best. I was still sort of marveling over those boots – I couldn’t believe I had swum 2.4 miles in them but oh well – at least I was warm!
Then I was wondering ‘where’s my bike’ and someone brought me a comfort bike – you know the ones with the straight handlebars. I thought ‘wait a minute – where is my stuff? Where is my transition area?’ and I realized I didn’t have one. I had no bike, no bike stuff and no run stuff and nothing was mine but all the while I was thinking “Fine – I’ll ride this bike – I’ll ride any bike – I WILL DO THIS RACE!” Then I thought ‘wait a minute – there’s no way I would show up for a race and not set up in transition. And then I knew I was dreaming and it really couldn’t be happening and I made myself wake up.
Instead of having heart palpitations and thinking “OMG – I’m so nervous’ I was relieved because I’m right on track – right up to the bad dream. There are just 7 days left on the countdown calendar and then it’s show time. I wonder how many more dreams I can squeeze in before then?