Yesterday I ran my 3rd 15 mile run. I have also run 2 20 miles runs and an 18 mile run. I expected this 3rd 15 mile run to be a piece of cake. It was not. It was hard and I got the worst time of all 3 of these 15 mile runs.
The first one was June 3rd and I had a very hard time with the last 2 or 3 miles.
The second one was July 1 and was apparently pretty unremarkable. It went ‘okay’
The second was yesterday and I didn’t bonk but I was fatigued pretty much the whole time and really dragged butt.
Stuff like this shatters my confidence that I will make my sub 5 hour goal but at this point I hardly care. I know I will finish and right now that feels good enough. I’m not very fond of ‘good enough’, preferring ‘I rocked’ under almost all circumstances but at this point I don’t have a lot of fight left in me. I have had too many really hard, uncomfortable runs to care.
In all fairness my pace, including long bathroom break at the 1/2 point and a couple of stops to find my water bottles was 11:31 which is still a 5 hour pace (hope springs eternal) but I in no way felt that I had another 11 miles left in me*. I don’t know if it was fatigue from my track workout on Thursday and the fact that I spent Saturday on my flip-flopped feet in a museum plus high heat (I left at 6:30 and was melting by 8) or if I’ve just lost my running mojo. I can only hope that by marathon day I will be rested, fed, hydrated and ready to rock this thing. And if I don’t then so be it.
When I got to 15 I did make myself keep going for a little while. I wanted to transcend that ‘I just can’t do this anymore’ feeling and I wanted to cross the line and get my second wind. I sort of did – enough to remember that in a marathon I’m willing to endure pain and the desire to quit in order to get to the finish line. In fact, now that I think about, since this will be my 3rd marathon I hope the 3rd time really is a charm
*Update – talk about a self defeating attitude. I would only need to go another 9 miles, not 11! I think you are all right – I just need a REAL taper, not this crazy pseudo taper.